Friday, November 20, 2009

I'm here...



...here in my nest. After the last post, about crocheting to keep my hands busy, I just kept on going...



For days that's all I did. I just sat here in my nest and followed the patterns in this book (ISBN 4-391-62017-0). I didn't stray from the patterns at all like I usually tend to do...I didn't want to think about it that much...I just wanted something to do to ease the pain.


So here I sit, 11 doilies, 2 four leaf clovers, a basket liner, and two pin cushions later.... and feeling just a little bit better.

I've been so depressed and discouraged this week, but I feel myself slowly moving out of it....one stitch at a time...


Eventually I did make these pin cushions by just using the center of the doily pattern, not much imagination needed there, but it is an improvement. I hope I will be back to my old self soon, with more good days than bad days, until then I'll be here in my nest....stitching, praying, healing, and holding my sweet babies.

Friday, November 13, 2009

Keeping my hands busy...



I've went back to my first love, crochet, to keep my hands busy through these hard days. There is something so healing in that quiet rhythm.

I'm not sure what I will do with these yet, maybe frame them, I don't know....



What's important now is that I just keep going. One stitch at a time...



...then I'll be alright soon, I know I will...I wonder how many women before me have used a form of hand stitching to heal a broken heart....

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

When I get to heaven...

...my arms won't be able to hold all of the angels waiting for me there! Oh what a happy day it will be when I get to meet all of those babies that I mourn for now. God has taken another baby to be with Him. I will go in for surgery in the morning. Please pray for us tomorrow....

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Scrap game entries!



We have winners!!! Jennifer said that it would be impossible to pick just one so I added a runner up prize (a pattern from the shop) and she picked the winners this morning!

This is what she wrote:

"Hi Samantha.


Picking a winner was tough with so many great entries. I'm really impressed and inspired that all the projects were made with scraps. Very nice work, everyone!

I was especially impressed with Kelli's candy cane ornaments because she made use of the tiniest of scraps using an original design. Using a muslin foundation and the flip and stitch method she pieced together small bits of fabric and achieved a delightful result. I appreciate that this project is one both beginning the veteran sewers can enjoy and validates my personal obsession with keeping the smallest bits of fabric because "I can use them later." I'm so going to make some of these! Congrats to Kelli. She is the winner!

And because I couldn't pick just one winner from a field this strong, I picked Dawn as the runner up. (Thank you Samantha, for allowing me to pick two entries.)

I LOVE "Tom" the turkey that Dawn made completely from stash supplies. From scraps of fabric and cotton stuffing to ric-rac for his waddle, velvet ribbon for his bow tie, and a knitting needle in his neck to make his neck stand up straight, Dawn did a great job of creating a scrap turkey with personality. Great job!

Thanks for asking me to participate, Samantha. The contest entries were very inspiring."



Congratulations guys! I will email you tomorrow for details about your winnings!

Here are all of the entries ready to be judged tomorrow by the wonderful Jennifer Ackerman-Haywood! I will announce the winner as soon as I hear from her! Good job everyone!




"I must have Christmas on my mind! Our family Christmas tree is very eclectic and my favorite ornaments year after year are the ones that have been handmade. I had so much fun digging through my scrap bins looking at all those well loved (and tiny!) scraps. I started by sketching a simple candy cane and tracing onto muslin. I then used that for a foundation and used the flip and stitch method to add the scraps. I stuffed these with just a tiny amount of stuffing to give them some body and added jute for my hanger."




"I sat my little girl down with the scrap box and asked her to choose the fabrics and trims she'd like to use for her skirt. Was she ever excited! She (and I) happens to be a SisBoom fan and all of the fabrics she picked are SisBoom fabrics. We have others in the bin, but this is what she asked for. She also picked some ribbon and ric rac, and of course she finally got to put pom poms on something. She's been waiting months for that opportunity."



(Front)

(Back)
Eleece Nephew

"This is the “Charlotte” pattern, from Children’s Corner. The Green corduroy fabric and gingham lining were scrap pieces from a dear friend who cleaned out her sewing room and gave me buckets of fabric. The momma hen, eggs, chicks, scarecrow and crow were all drawn out free-hank and cut completely out of scraps I had in my stash. I must say, this is probably the most fun I’ve had in a long time sewing. I felt like a real artist! I decided on the “chicken theme” because we had recently taken a trip to the country and my youngest daughter, Indea (4), had taken quite well to the chickens, chasing them around the coop and then to my surprise picking them up to give them “hugs.”






"The shabby trees and stars were inspired by Lollychops recent scrappy projects. I found coordinating reds and yellows, stacked about 8 layers of fabric, then cut out the shapes. After scrunching them up, I pinned them in place and stitched up the middle. They will get more shabby with time since the edges are unfinished.


To finish the pillows, I stitched JOY on the small one and PEACE on the large one in red floss. You have to zoom in to really see the stitching, but I'm pleased with it. I'm a total novice at hand embroidery, but just stitched away! Voila! In the time it took to watch a movie with the kids, I made two adorable holiday pillows."
 
 
 


 
"I have seen a couple ideas for color books online - so, I decided I needed to make one for my daughter. She is 20 months old and is learning her colors. I decided I had all those colors in my scrap pile - just needed to come together into a teaching tool! I cut 3 5" squares of each color. Then, I chose two tones of that color in embroidery floss and embroidered the color name on muslin. (I am somewhat new at embroidery and was surprised how quickly I could do a simple running stitch for all of the words!) An added scrap value - I got the muslin at a yard sale -already cut into smallish squares. I was happy to have a use for it. :) Next, I pieced the pages together and put together the book. I added fleece in between the pages to give it a softer feel. Also, added a velcro closure. I am happy with how it came out. "
 

 
 
"This is "Tom"! He is made completely from things I had and not a thing was purchased to make him. He's made from scraps of fabric, cotton stuffing, ric-rac for his waddle, velvet ribbon for his bow tie, and a knitting needle in his neck to make his neck stand up straight. I weighted him with rice in his butt so that he would sit up nicely. His wings are made with fusible interfacing between fabric and then they are quilted to give them texture and more stability. He also has wiggly eyes for a fun and whimsical touch."
 
 



"I used mustard corduroy, linen bits, lace, velvet ribbon, a doily, and a piece of curtain. I am so in love with this scarf."








"Reversible Table and Placemats
Here I have my six newly made 4-holiday placemats and table runner. My runner is short and fat to cover the buffet area, so it won’t run far, but it will do a great job over here. Four-holiday what could I possibly be talking about? It's Reversible!"




Umma
 
"It's a scrap bag and weighted pin cushion. I haven't finished the matching pattern folder cover & notion holders yet."
 
 

 
Contrax
 
It was fun to go through my scrap bag and remember the things I have made this past year. I chose some scraps based on the patterns that would fit across the button, added some rick rack and then glued on a bead or two from my scrap bead jar.




The Prudent Homemaker

"For the scripture bag that I made. A tutorial should be up by tomorrow. It is made of 3 small scrap pieces of tapestry that my Mother-in-law gave me. The tassel is from some curtains that were given to me from another woman (I cut the curtains into a dress for my daughter)."


Friday, November 6, 2009

Peace that passes understanding...

....that is exactly what I have. I have had a wonderful week since Tuesday afternoon. I have not been worried or fretful, not even weepy or sensitive, I am at peace.

I've just realised this week that in the last four years of walking through valleys I have learned a very precious lesson in faith. I used to pray for what I wanted and then pitch a fit like a mad toddler when I didn't get my way. I called asking God for what I wanted and believing that he would always give it to me "having faith"....but it's not....I've learned that having faith is being able to fully trust that He has a plan for me, and just like any father, he knows what is best for me even if it hurts. I don't have to run to him and tell him what I want, he knows the desires of my heart. Faith is being able to say "God I don't know why I'm here and I don't understand your plan, but let your Will be done....I trust you". Now of course I'm not perfect, and it took me a day or so to have enough faith to pray that prayer and mean it after the news I received on Monday, but ever since I did I have had the sweetest peace in my heart and mind.

Thank you all so much for your prayers! I have been so touched, I have an inbox full of the most beautiful comments and emails from mothers all over the world. There is no way that I will be able to thank each one of you individually, but please know that each one meant so much to me and my family. I just can't express how blessed I feel to have so many wonderful people who care about us! Thank you so so very much friends, your prayers have been so appreciated. Please continue to pray for us in the coming days. Love, Samantha

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Friends, please pray for us today.

I have been planning this post for weeks now, thinking about how much fun it was going to be.....I was going to show you my first ultrasound picture from yesterday and tell you how excited and grateful we are to be expecting another little angel, but this little one is already in trouble. We need prayer and a miracle. The doctor didn't see everything he needed to see on the ultrasound and the outcome doesn't look good. He said "the odds are stacked against us and statistically it doesn't look good" but he also said "I'm not ready to throw in the towel" and "We know God can change things".... I am so heartbroken today. I'm scheduled for another ultrasound on Tuesday, if they find what they want to see we will move on cautiously but if they don't see a change I will be scheduled for a D&C on Wednesday.

I have so many different emotions pulsing through me this morning. My heart is not at peace, I'm still struggling to find where I should stand and what I should feel. Should I prepare my heart for the heartache I know so well, or should I hang on to that shred of hope and wait for a miracle? I wish I were strong and decided on how to feel.....at least I know what I believe. I may not always be able to control or understand my feelings (especially when they are so charged with hormones) but I will always know what I believe.......I believe that no matter what happens His grace will be sufficient, I know that "all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose" (Romans 8:28), and I know that He has given me a very precious gift, a beautiful family, a wonderful strong husband, three precious biological children, and more children waiting in an orphanage in Bulgaria.




Please pray for my little one and our family this week, it would mean so much to me. Thank you friends. xoxo, Samantha

Thursday, October 29, 2009

I have an exciting update for the scrap game!!!



I have found a judge........It's Jennifer Ackerman-Haywood from Craftsanity!!! If you have never listened to her podcast you are missing out! She has the most fun and interesting interviews with top crafters, sewers, knitters, craft book authors, and designers. She is awesome, and she will be judging our little scrap game on November 8th! Which means I need all entries by lunch on the 7th! YAY! I am so excited! If you haven't entered yet JOIN IN! This is going to be such a fun game!!!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Miss Alice Pre-order 15% off the entire shop!


Miss Alice is now up for pre-order (the pattern will be ready within two weeks!) and as usual I am offering a discount for the next couple of days! You will get 15% off of your entire purchase and that includes EVERYTHING in the shop, even fabric!! So head on over NOW!

Monday, October 26, 2009

new bags :: a little sewing challenge/ game





This post is all about crating/sewing the quick, easy, artistic, inexpensive, and fun way! This weekend I was looking for a fun hand project that could be done on the couch with the kids around me, and I also needed a baby shower gift for Sunday, so this is what I came up with. I had these two inexpensive canvas tote bags (you know the ones that come in a 3- pack at Walmart or Joann's) that were from an abandoned  project a few months back. The bags already had the bird ironed on but nothing else so I thought a scrap project would be nice.

This is how the first one turned out! I loved it! I loved it so much that I decided to put in a lining with pockets so that I could use it as a purse. The whole thing came together quickly while the kids and I watched a movie. Perfect. I just used scraps and I worked long hand stitches with embroidery thread. I didn't do any measuring or anything like that I just built this little scene as I went, it was so much fun! (The bird and leaves are free downloads in the shop if you would like to give this a try.)

This is my camera pocket and cell phone pocket.

The second one was a lot of fun too. I basically did the same thing except this time I decided to challenge myself and make this one different than the first...you know the same feel but a different scene. I'm telling ya, this freestyle stuff where you don't plan ahead of time what you will do but just make it up as you go, is awesome! It makes the project so interesting and challenging.

Since this bag was going to be a baby gift I put two large pockets inside for diapers and wipes and then a cell pocket on the other side. I just love that lining fabric, click on the picture and you can see that it's little clogs! The sweet mama who received the bag really liked it too which makes it even more fun for me!

So here they are two very fun, easy, inexpensive projects that look different but have the same style. I finally used the abandoned bags, found a way to use up my favorite fabric scraps, and got a purse and a baby gift out of it, not to mention the fun I had making them! You know, this could be done on just about anything laying around the house....a shirt with a stain, an old pair of jeans, an old purse, a pillow or blanket, a dress, an apron.... Now I challenge you to get out of your box and try to make something beautiful with things you already have. Make it up as you go and see what comes of it! Lets make it a "use your scraps" game! If you want to play along let me know and when you are done send in a picture of your project and tell me a little about what you did, then in a week or so I will post the pictures here with a link to your blog (if you have one). Won't that be fun?! I will see if I can find someone to judge and whoever wins will get a $25 gift certificate to my shop for patterns or fabric! I am so excited! I love when things like this pop into my head while I'm posting! I guess we will need a few rules too. OK here they are...

Rules:
1. You must use things that you already have.
2. Of course most of the embellishments must be made using scraps.
3. You must enter here in the comment's section.
4. And you must send in your picture, description, and blog link (you don't have to have a blog) by Friday November the sixth to mamacaffee@hotmail.com.

(If you think of anymore rules that should be in place let me know)

Let the games begin! I'll be back soon with the story of how Molly ended up with a live lizard attached to her nose. And yes, I have pictures so don't you worry!

NOTE: I just moved the date back to the 6th because Jean fussed at me (not really, but she did call me out ;) for starting a challenge right before Halloween. I forget about Halloween because we don't ever do anything for Halloween, so sorry. Now that will give you 6 days after to work on this, so sign up!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Cake and tattoos

I couldn't decide on the title of this post...should it be "cake and tattoos" or "things that make you feel good but probably aren't good for you"...what a quandary....



Today I made a straight-out-the-box strawberry cake. Probably not a good move. O.K. so most definitely not a good move, cause I may as well take that piece of cake and slap it right on my thigh because that's exactly where it's going. I wasn't going to cut it until tomorrow when I go to my sisters house but I decided I needed to taste it first and make sure it was good. Ahemmm...It was good...so good. Maybe even better because I didn't have to mess the kitchen up making it from scratch. Bad!

So here I am in heaven eating my strawberry cake when Maddie comes up wanting to "make a tattoo" on my leg with a pen....I thought about how good it would feel to have someone rub my leg while I ate my cake. I mean let's face it, how often does anyone offer to rub your legs? I know it's not technically "rubbing" but I'll take what I can get. So I told her sure she could make one little tattoo on my leg and that's all.....well she got to drawing and it felt so good that I didn't tell her to stop, and even offered her my other leg when she ran out of space...and in the end I thought about it....What did I gain from these few moments of pleasure? Fat thighs with cheap tattoos on them that will probably take days to wash off... Was it worth it? ...I think it was. Cake and a leg rub? Are you kidding? And to look on the bright side, there is more cake left and now there will be more room on my leg for tattoos. So there you have it. My "little-something-to-look-forward-to" for tomorrow. Oh the joys of mommyhood!